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There was a point, not long after I finished university, and spent 10 months or so holding forth nightly, Ouzo-and-water in hand, for the entertainment of the patrons on the porch of Stavros' Irish Bar in Mykonos, Greece (where I spent some time writing software for a small hotel and making sure that the owner's VIP gun-running buddies and their mistresses had clean sheets and plentiful champagne) that I stopped thinking that I actually had anything to say. Or that there was any point actually saying it to anyone. Well, not exactly that, perhaps - I made a deliberate decision to Stop Thinking So Goddamn Much. I think it had something to do with the fact that the other straight guys (of whom there weren't really that many on Mykonos during the Season) were by and large not the Thinking Type, and it seemed to me that they were perenially achieving much more demonstrably significant levels of romantic success with the Swedish stewardesses, French public servants, and other maddeningly delightful examples of European femininity that constantly littered the beaches and bars, confident of their hetero groovethings amidst the heaving seas of Mykonian man-on-man action.

Ka-chunk - spurious causal connection made : reduce cerebration, increase fornication. But with my regularly scheduled rocket-fuel rants on the porch of Stavros' place on the nature of life, the universe, or why the hell the Man in The Moon scared the sh-t out of me so badly, and my almost complete lack of wonderchicken-booty shaking disco action, the young ladies I tended to attract, if any, were more of the cerebral variety, who, without putting too fine a point on it, tended to be less carnally-inclined. Or English, which was worse. At least that's how it seemed to me, sad, mad, alcohol-soaked bastard that I was. My tendency after a certain point in the evening to stagger over to the bar and do stately (if somewhat legless) sirtaki dances with portly, 50 year old Stavros put even them off. Stavros always had one or two young women under his arm, a fact looked upon with an amazing lack of remonstration by Effi, his long-suffering wife. Didn't do me any damn good, regardless.

What was I talking about? Oh yeah : there was a whole nexus of things that made me turn from the life of the mind ("I will show you the Life of The Mind!") to a life lived in the moment. Not that I stopped reading, or thinking, or even talking massive quantities of sh-t to my friends while drinking beside bodies of water and trying to figure it all out, during my twenties and early thirties. But I did consciously do a trade-in of introspection, bookishness, and analysis for random danger, booze and swashbuckling, and spent the balance received on plane tickets to wherever it might be, eyes closed, that my index finger landed on a world map. And I'll tell you, my friends, I had one hell of a ride.

All of this, in sub-Mike Golby-long-story-long fashion, is meant to leave a minotaur-fearing trail of crumbs to the point of this post : I don't feel as if I have much to say today. Or for the last week, really.

'Cause sometimes the habits of a decade and more well up, lapping gently around my brainpan, and I find myself saying to myself, as of old, "f--k it. Crack a beer, sing a song. Let the accountants fritter away their lives on the details."

But blogging has been good for me, I suppose, and though I find myself logging into Blogger, ready to say : "Well, I'm tapped out. Go read Jonathon or Mike or Tom or Shelley (except she's also tapped out at the moment) or any of the other fine and fascinating folks in the neighbourhood," well, here I am, a long-ass post later, and I've ended end up talking about Swedish Stewardesses (oh dear lord, the Swedish stewardesses), and had an enjoyable time doing so.

That, from where I'm sitting, is a Good Thing. I hope you agree, gentle reader, but if not, well, the hell with ya.

(Oh, and the 'Me Tarzan, You Jane' stuff? Didn't work worth a damn. You just can't fake being good-lookin' and dumb as a post. Live and learn.)

Well, I was young, OK? comments.